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1. Coin Operated Boy by the Dresden Dolls
Made of plastic and elastic
He is rugged and long lasting
Who could ever ever ask for more?
Love without complications galore

2. Gimme Danger by Iggy Pop and the Stooges
Now, if you will be my lover
I will shiver and sing
But if you can't be my master
I will do anything
There's nothing left alive
But a pair of glassy eyes
Raise my feelings one more time

3. Use Somebody (cover) by Bat For Lashes
Someone like you, and all you know, and how you speak
Countless lovers under cover of the street
You know that I could use somebody

4. Fireproof by the National
You tell me you’re waiting
To find someone
Who isn’t so hopeless
But there’s no one

5. Lover I Don't Have to Love (cover) by Bettie Serveert
But you but you
You write such pretty words
But life's no story book
Love's an excuse to get hurt
And to hurt
"Do you like to hurt?"
"I do! I do!"
"Then hurt me."

6. Hold Onto Me by Placebo
And my behavior is hard to understand
When I'm like a phone with no connection
But I'm still doing all I can
To try and get me some redemption
And I'm knee deep in sinking sand
Crying out for your attention
Kindly lend a helping hand
For once defy convention

7. Toxic (Cover) by Yael Naim
It's getting late
To give you up
I took a sip
From my devil's cup
Slowly, it's taking over me
Too high
Can't come down
It's in the air and it's all around
Can you feel me now?

8. Okay I Believe You, But My Tommy Gun Don't by Brand New
Handsome and smart
Oh, my tongue's the only muscle in my body that works harder than my heart
And it's all from watching tv
And from speeding up my breathing
Wouldn't stop if I could
Oh, it hurts to be this good
You're holding on to your grudge
Oh, it hurts to always have be honest with the one you love
Oh, so let it go

9. Sorry by Halsey
I run away when things are good
And never really understood
The way you laid your eyes on me
In ways that no one ever could
And so it seems I broke your heart
My ignorance has struck again
I failed to see it from the start
And tore you open 'til the end

10. Over and Over by Evans Blue
You better see how evil you can be
When you see my evil smile
It's the one that you'll remember when I am not so kind
Can't you see that this is death and death is saving me
I say burn all your bridges while you still have control of the flame
I know it's hard but you...
Tell me, over and over and over and over and over again
It never was time for us, it never was time to let me in

11. Weak (cover) by K's Choice
(And) now I sit here I`m all alone
So here sits a bloody mess, tears fly home
A circle of angels, deep in war
`Cause I wanted you
Weak as I am, no tears for you

12. Deep Inside Of You by Third Eye Blind
I've never felt alone
'Till I met you
I'm all right on my own
And then I met you
And I'd know what to do if I just knew what's coming
I would change myself if I could
I'd walk with my people if I could find them

13. Touch by Daughter
Love hunt me down
I can't stand to be so dead behind the eyes
And feed me, spark me up
A creature in my blood stream chews me up
So I can feel something
So I can feel something

14. If You Don't, Don't by Jimmy Eat World
If you don't know, honey
Why'd you just say so?
'cause I need this now
More than I ever did
If you don't know, honey
Then you don't

15. Baker, Baker by Tori Amos
know you're late
For you next parade
You came to make sure
That I'm not running
Well I ran from him
In all kinds of ways
Guess it was his turn this time

16. Between the Bars by Elliot Smith
Drink up with me now
And forget all about
The pressure of days
Do what I say
And I'll make you okay
And drive them away
The images stuck in your head

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Happy Birthday, Tami!
desertions: (who is in control)
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still here

still katie

i just felt like I needed a change. superkappa was a nickname from someone I haven't talked to in a long time, I don't really feel like that person anymore. I liked this name and it was free so there you go. nothing too exciting.

I guess that's a lie. I passed my exams in the spring. I got my masters, I graduated. I moved. I'm looking for work. Things are finally moving forward again after being pause for what feels like too long. I feel like a lot of my feelings about things are still catching up with me.

I wrote a letter to my uncle confronting about some family stuff, he came back super defensively and it was kinda nasty and hurtful, especially because I spent so long trying to phrase things as kindly and constructively as possible and that same respect wasn't given back. It's hard, mourning the idea of somebody.

I'm sad. I'm hurt. Mostly I'm pretty angry.

Some of my poems are being published in a local literary magazine soon. I'm pretty excited about that. I want to write more creatively again in general. I have a few short story ideas I want to work on. i've been jotting down quite a bit of poetry, not all of it great, it's been nice to do that kind of writing again.

I've gotten really, really into Wynonna Earp in the way that I have not felt fannish over something in a very long time. Maybe I'll ever try writing fic again. Who knows.

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Jul. 17th, 2017 02:27 pm
margotttenenbaum: (Betty Hofstadt Draper Francis)
[personal profile] margotttenenbaum
Idk if anyone goes on these sites enough to notice, but Photobucket abruptly decided I was no longer allowed to link to my pictures using them as a hosting site without paying upwards of $300 for the year, so I deleted my account. This will result in tons of broken links for things that I've put up and created over the course of more than a decade in my time in fandom. That is very upsetting to me, obviously. I don't really know what I'm going to do; I used to use Tumblr for hosting sometimes, but it resulted in a lot of broken links itself. I don't really have the energy for fandom that I used to have so most of it will likely remain fucked up. I might try to fix some of the more recent things I've posted, but we'll see. I don't know yet.

But just curious, any hosting sites that anyone is a fan of?
margotttenenbaum: (Maia Roberts)
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shadowhunters. maia roberts, jace wayland, luke garroway.
4385 words. w: discussion of past abuse.

summary: Jordan was the bogeyman Maia had banished at the end of the horror movie that was high school. She had not expected to see him again.

( maia doesn't look back )
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